bellyn

hmmm

Fri, 24 Jun 2005 10:18:03 GMT

I can't seem to figure out how to install the proper date..
I'm such a computer n00b.
I'm very happy with my new laptop! But I haven't figured out how to connect it to the internet yet. The feature I most love is my t-pad.
Ow darn I've to work in one hour. It's so hot in there because the airco is broke...
I hate it when it is to hot. All I really wanna you is just sleep.

Upcomming sunday we had plan to have our final 'stam'-BBQ, but already 3 people can't make it so I think we just have to cancel it. Maybe until mid-August.
Ow wait I think I'll be on vacation then. Well me and a friend had taken 2 weeks of, which has already become one, but we're still planning to go on vacation, but we don't know were and so far we haven't even tried to make reservations.

I already know what I'm going to do next summer though, because I've been asked to join in on a ínterrail trip. We haven't set the route though. I thought we were going to eastern Europe, but it seems that we're going more southern.
They've also already talked me into bungee-jumping. Well at least they said I had to do it and I (who is kinda afraid of heights) just figured that I could still crie and vomit when done jumping ;) We also plan to take some kind of handy-cam so that we can make a vacation movie.
I'm really looking forward to it, I'm sure it's going to be a great trip.

' where do we go from here '

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 13:19:06 GMT

My trip to Roma was great.
It was everything I dreamed and probobly even better.
I've seen and learned so much in one week. This leaves me with all sorts of questions about who I am and what my statements are.

I guess I don't really know that right now. I just have to take a little more time to find that out.
But seriously if you ever get the chance to go to Roma, you have to take it! It'll be worth it.

I still haven't found a Room. I really must hurry up, because i've to live in amsterdam by the end of august. I'm very excited to leave my current adress. But also a bit sad, because thins are going quite fine right now and I know that will change. I've great friends down here, but I'm also pretty sure that we won't stay friends when I move to Amsterdam and won't be around very much. Ah well true friends last longer than that, so it'll also be a good thing. Because I'll learn in time who are my real friends...

Sat, 26 Feb 2005 23:04:48 GMT

Yay after 3 years I've finally finished my book-files for school. I've read 12 books and one poem. Well actually i've read more, but hey I'm not going to make extra reports...

I just needed to say this!

I can just feel my wings of freedom growing and popping out of my back, or maybe that's just because I went to the gym a little to mucht this week ;)

I never MUST or HAVE to read anything, because people tell me to do it. I now can read certain books because I want to read them!

I Do NOT have to do or say things I don't want! And I never will no mather what people might say about it.

''Right did you remember last weekend? No you don't?! Wait am I mistaken or were that your friends throwing beer in my face. Ow right they were, but you had nothing to do with it. No your right, I was wrong all along. Yes It's all my fault, and no of course I musten't listen to my own heart, because yours is more important, and some things just need to been done.....''

And no I'm not even taking the energy to tell him that, because frankly he has no right of speaking, and I'm not willing to speak to people who act like that anyway. I'm sorry, but I'm not gonna wait until forever until u realise there might be more important things than sex and alcohol. and that there just needs to be more that nice promises and big-talk for thing to work. Respect for other people would be a start though, but might be a little hard to ask from some...........

I don't....I think ...or maybe......there might be a little chance... Well i'm not to sure of that either though.

Humpf stupid feelings, why can't we just put them in a little jar and take them out for a walk whenever we feel like it;)

Update

Thu, 24 Feb 2005 10:27:39 GMT

I know, I know....
I really should update this thing more often, but it's just that I'm always to busy or to tired...

*wait mail is arriving*
Yes finaly I've got my salary! I've worked so much this month, and I was so exited to see how much I'd earned!

anyway back to the update.
I just went to the dockter. I've been sick for 3 months. He thinks I've got some kind of allergie, but they can't find it....I'm really thired of the whole thing, but I've got something new to see if that works, so I've to see him again in 6 weeks.

because I had to go the the dockter I missed my spiing appointment, and I can't go tonight either, because I've to work from 6 till 9. So I guess I'll go again tomorrow morging.
I love sports. I used to hate it, but things have all changed and I've to work-out.

ahh pring in in the air! what can't you smell it?
Really I'm telling you, there's something happening, or is it just me? Well at least that cold winter is almost over!
I'm not much of a winter fanatic.... Nopes.
The only thing I like to do in the winter is going to the beach. Really that's something I do enjoy. The cold wind blowing through your hair and on your face....

I'm goign the the alanis morissette concert in April! I'm really looking forward to it!
This sunday I'll go to a concert of a band called Omnia. I'm also really looking forward to that, because I get to see a lot of people who I haven't seen in quite some time.

In august or september I'm moving toward Amsterdam, I've made my decision, and I'm going to study at the university of amsterdam, which is quite funny, because I've always considered that one of my last options. I thought I'd go to Rotterdam, Leiden or Utrecht, but in that end it looks like that's not going to happen, and I'm moving to our capital city.

Well thare's not much left to say...
So i think i'm just gonna go and read a book or something...
I actually should work on a paper, but og well.. no inspiration on the subject so...

' work in progress '

Sun, 09 Jan 2005 12:10:09 GMT

Yesterday I've tried to update my LJ 5 times and every time I was finally done I got a freaking error message so I had to start over again...

I really should be working on my paper, but I just can't get myself to write anything good. Really I'm so glad if the whole thing is finally over and I can focus on other stuff.

My father rheumatism has gotten worse. I knew this day would come, but I guess I didn't expected it to come so soon. It's hard not to know were things are going, and if they will go fast or not.

I still don't know about my study. Yesterday my mom suggested that I also could do something else the next year. Like volonteering in a foreign prodject, but I think that if I don't that I'll love the work to muh and that I dont want to come back anymore. I might do that after my study though. Funny thing is I love to work with children, but the directing I might be going doens't really involve that, so I guess I'll have to find another way to keep doing that. I'm thinking about joining an amarica summercamp for one summer. Can't do that this summer, because they want people who are over 18 when they start, and since I won't be 18 until the end of July it won't be an option.

Sometimes I wish I could just hide and stay in my bed, I love my bed it's so nice and I have a lot of space!

Oh well I haven't got a lot to say today. It has just been a quit weekend, and tomorrow I got to get back into the real world ;)

Well I've got to get back and work on my paper now, because if I don't do it today I won't do it until the last moment, and then I'm sorry that I didn't do it on a day like this...

At last

Fri, 07 Jan 2005 19:41:14 GMT

Finally I have found my way into 'live journal-world';).
I'm so tired....
This is the last day of my X-mas vacantion and I was supposed to do a lot of work since I have my finals in may.....but I didn't do anything. Well not anything that has anything to do with my finals..

I did have a lot of fun though. I finally had some time for myself so I've finished some books: 'hersenschimmen'(Bernlef) and 'de Passievrucht'(Glastra van Loon). The first one is about a demented older man, which I found very difficult to read because it got to me personally since my grandfather has the same disease. The 2nd one is about a man who has a 13 year old son when he finds out he has been infertile for all his life. The problem is that his wife died several years ago, so he can't ask her about it. Anyway I liked them both...

Well I guess I'm going to have a busy weekend also...

Yay-me today after 1.5 week I went to the gym again to re-start my fitness program. I hope I can get myself to go for another period of 6 moths without a break! I actually like it quite a lot. Only I do get bored if I haven't got my music with me.

I can't wait until spring and I can go to the beach again. I love that, but not so much in winter. I was there last weekend though...

* current weight: too much. (I guess I have 1 new years resolution ;)